The Fame
Dear Friends,
Today I am going to talk about something I feel like some of you might not know. Going by the tile you might be able to hazard a guess as to what I am talking about. I am of course talking about the attempt to try and again some notoriety in the world and be famous. This is something I have thought about for as long as I could remember. What I have been thinking about lately is, did this go away or did I start chasing a different dream?
When I was younger, I did want to be famous, what I wanted to be famous for a change regularly. Wither it was me being a singer, or if it changed by be a reality star of some kind. Maybe even surprise casting in a film for child of a specific weight or height. Of course, I knew deep down I never had the talent for any of these. However, knowing any of this stop my daydreaming. In adult life I think about different getting fame in different ways.
One of the ways I thought about fame came when YouTube creatures became a thing. The thing is, doing that is a long and tiring process to get done. You must write film edit and publish a thing and hope it gets enough views to make it worth wile. Then you must keep up a certain momentum to keep people interested and then rack up views and subscriptions for it to be something. Which I didn’t think I had it in me, which then led to double down on the one thing I’ve thought that would get me famous for the longest time.
The thing I hoped I would gain fame from is from my writing. I thought I would write a bestselling book, and that would be the thing that would bring me some fame. Or course this didn’t happen, as when it came to me writing a full book, I found out I didn’t not know to write a full novel with it being good enough for my own personal standards. I did write one, which I didn’t get an agent for, and it kind of made me rethink the whole book thing.
Natural I then thought about here, and the things I write about every week. I thought about the deep thoughts I have, and I put on here. I thought about how I have thought provoking ideas and talking about subject that really matters. I would talk to about Mental Health, Sex and being queer. I thought some of these writings would get me noticed by a lot of different people on social media, get a worldwide audience. This did work to a degree which I was happy with, but if I was to be honest it wasn’t the large audience I was hoping for.
One of the things I noticed about this was, I need to do a lot of self-promotion. As I am so small, I not doing enough of a marking campaign for people to see it. I just post it on socials for one day then never promote it again. However, when I remember to retweet and put it on all platforms, I do see an increase of visitors. Which I now know to get notice it takes a lot of work, which usually these days is more effort than writing the post. Which sometimes I think I am lazy, as I want to the fame but don’t want to put in the work. I something times think the writing is good enough, but honest if no one is reading how can they see how good it is?
I would like to say I have given up on the idea of me gain fame, the different is now I don’t want world fame I would just like to be known for my great mind. Which is why I have branched out into different kind of writing. As I would like to be noticed for my mind about gaming, and all the other things I have mentioned before. The thing is I would just like to be known for the things I write as entertaining and insightful. I like to think my posts are, but I don’t know if I am known for them yet. Of course, I would still like to write a book, and have it been a moderate best seller, but I don’t know if I will ever be something.
The question is why do I want the fame? Some people want to be known and some people want to get money. I personally feel like I want my life to worth something. I feel like there a lot of people who know things and don’t say them or didn’t have the strength or knowledge to make themselves known. I feel like with all my life has been, that I should be known for overcoming the struggles I have. Then I want that to be a beacon to people out there who might be same. I know there is a level of narcissism about it, but I don't feel it’s my only real motivation.
As for now I feel like I am still chasing a dream that may never come true. However, as I am realistic, I feel like there still a chance I could get to be known for a few things. The only difference is what do I want to get known for. I do think a lot of us still would like to be known for something. Wither it’s having a piece of work being praised or doing something that catches many people’s eye. I know a lot of people would say they wouldn’t and some I believe them, but some of them I know they would like just to have their five minutes in the lights, because we all want the fame.
Xo FabEs
