Super Freak Part 1
Dear friends,
I haven’t talked about this topic in a while, so let’s get to it, sex. As we live in the modern world there has been a few things we’ve had to deal with in regards to sex. With technologies now allowing us to do things quick, instantly and it has got me wondering, has it ruined what sex for a lot of us? I don’t think so I do think it has also allowed us be a little bit freer, and even be a little freaky.
As we now living the age where teens have smart phones and send sext and dirty pictures it’s no wonder why many of them consider vanilla sex boring. I mean if you’ve been able to get your rocks off to many different forms of porn from a young age your mind is going to change a little. That’s not being me, that’s something a lot of psychologist believe, and I believe them. For me I was exposed to what I was very earlier only into puberty, for me I kind of knew what a lot it meant. As such I feel my knowledge of the basics allowed me to seek out what else was out there.
If you remember back to The Show, I did do an episode on kinks and the like, and if you want to know mine well go and have a listen it’s still here. What I am writing about today is, am I super freak? Short answer yes, and the long answer, he we go.
I have been wondering for a very long time am I different than most people sexually? Yes, I am of course, because I am a majorly sexual (whatever that means). I do think a lot of what I’m interested in doesn’t link to a lot of other people I meet. Which in the past I though was something that made me feel wrong? I thought this because I didn’t want to shag a bunch of guys was I weird. Same with me not wanting to have a particular kind of sex made me weird. Of course, now I know its society trying to play all men as sexual deviants. Which I know isn’t true.
What I do know about myself is like most people I like sex. I like doing it, talking about it and writing about it (have you read L?). As time has gone on, I have gotten used to talking to most of my friends about the subject, wither they be gay straight or any other orientation. I feel when I talk about it there is a lot of it, I’m leaving out. I’m leaving it out because a mix of shame and disgust.
I’m not saying these things about my sexuality no, I’m more talking about my sexual practices. Which I feel like a lot of the Bible squad would say I should be feeling. I’ve noticed in myself now I am reaching a lot of people I am only giving them half the picture. I do this so I am not scaring them away. When I know inside, I shouldn’t be doing. I should be owning up the things I like. Such as you might ask, like putting people different kind of underwear. To the idea of doing it out in an open field somewhere. Yet some of the darker ones I feel I like I hold back because I don’t want to be judge.
I don’t know why I find it hard to say to a lot of people their area of being fucked deep isn’t my idea of fun. I do like the idea of someone dressing up in snazzy suit. Which I find hard to tell people, because I feel we put the idea of what is more normal than something else. Why is normal to do something that could be body damaging if done incorrectly, but having someone put something on for you is considered kinkier?
Just like some of the more radical ideas I have, some people think, hmm maybe, when I say them. For me I feel it’s a little bit more open minded. Such as the idea, I would rather a partner play with me than play without out me. Which one again is an odd concept to a lot of people, because you shouldn’t want to encourage that kind of thing? However, since I am realist, I know anyone, me included is going to find someone else attractive, and maybe want to sleep with them. In my head I’d rather be a part of it than not, because that leads to the whole cheating thing. Which let’s not get into that. But expends the idea of watching my partner have a good time sexually and not feel bad about what there are doing. Which I know opens up its own can of worms, but group sex is a thing.
I do so times think women have fallen into this more than ever. You know because a woman could never enjoy sex, it’s 2all for a man. I’ve known a few who haven’t been allowed to let the freak flag fly, because fear of judgement. However, listen to WAP and I think you can tell, WOMEN ENJOY IT TOO! Just in case you didn’t know.
Am I okay with labeling myself as a freak? Yes, I am, do I want to expend it to a Super Freak? I will take that title with pride and no longer think about all the negative which come with it. I mean I live a double condemned life, what’s wrong with me admitting I want to do some things with, yogurt, chocolate and jell-o. Better yet why say that, I am open to new and exploratory ideas?
To my fellow freaks, and super freaks out there. Don’t hide it let’s be proud, whatever it is that gets us off. Lace & Leather, S&M, our In Public enjoy. Oh, for those of you that wondered what else could be one my list, hand me a cosmopolitan and maybe I’ll tell you.
Xo FabEs
