I'm Really, Really Hot

Dear Friends,  

Sometimes I do love how my mind works. I was doing some general background about a completely different subject, but while doing so my mind (as it usually does) thought of something else. Which made me think so much that I had to share it with everyone, and not just a conversation with a friend or two. I was asking about hot bodies, and what I found out was shocking. It showed me something about myself that I never really thought about. 

For the longest time I have always considered my body to not be in the greatest shape. There is a reason why that is, diet, exercise, mental health, but in my mind, I’ve always known when I put my head to it, I will be something I can overcome. Whenever life is good and consistent for a change. But no matter how my body looked I’ve always had this confidence about myself and the way I approached men. 

What I found out too many men I know aren’t into the kinds of guys that look like that >> Fair enough, we live in England and not everyone we know has time to kill it at the gym five days a week. What I found even more odd, people I know wouldn’t even approach someone like that. 

To me this was interesting. Yes, I know he doesn't have a face or a personality to go with it, but based on that alone, it would invite me to peek and see what a profile would be like. if there had been a mutual interest on there, I would approach. However, a lot of my fellows would not. Then it got me think, are we too intimidated by hot boded guys?  

I’d like to think that the average joe could walk up to a smoking hot guy and give it ago. What I've found out is most people would find it more intimate and reflect on themselves too much. Whereas I wouldn’t give it too much thought about it, if there was interest there, why not? 

This made me think of an instance that happened a while ago, when i was a student. I remember when I used to have a couple guys pass through my house, I remember a flat remarking, all the guys I had over were hot guys. At the time, I thought to myself was this an insult to my taste. Now however, I see this moment in a new context. Even though those guys were hot, I still had the balls to massage, talk and hook up with them. When maybe a lot of people would lack that confidence. 

This then got me thinking, do I have so much of a personality that would win someone over, rather than the way i look. Or is it the way I approach guys, and do the not so traditional thing of feeding flattery, that makes me more interesting to guys? Or is that the common interest in many things that creates that interest?  

All I know this will continue to be something I think about. Since I am no longer looking for other men to romance, it does get me wondering would I have the same confidence afterwards? I don't know but it is something to think about. All I know is I wish people had more self-confidence, and more willing to take more risks. On reflection maybe that says more about me, I am willing to take the rejection than not to try at all. Maybe I am a stronger person than I give myself credit for.  

There again as I write this and look at my picture of the WALL OF ABS, it takes a certain type of person to lift tops of hot guys and take pictures. Maybe that’s kind of ball to wall confidence that makes me really, really hot.  

Xo FabEs