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Dear friends,

As you hopefully have read, (if I got it out in the right order), I have been jealous of some your relationships. With that in mind, I have been thinking about how I can take that feeling and, change it into a positive one. I’ve been thinking about what I want.

Normally I know what I want, but now (and a post coming soon) I have been having this whole question about what I like. This has affected how I look at men. Normally I’d be like, him, him, maybe him, definite him. Of late though I been the opposite, and been more, if I had to pick one… which is sad. When I should be feeling a lot more positive about it. Instead of searching I have turned my attention to what I want. Three years ago, I did a similar thing, I thought about what I wanted and put it out into the universe. When I did, I got some of what I was looking for, nothing that was a deal breaker, but it was more positive than negative. What I have decided from my own personal growth I am going to put it out there once again and see what happens.

I think one of the things I would want someone to know about me is, I am easy going on. I am not selfish, I like to help, I’m good at ideas, and most importantly flexible. More importantly I am honest and direct. Not in a rude way, not that I think any way. In a way so you know what’s up with me, without having to ask. I personally think it makes things a litter easier. Some might say it makes me a little too easy and open. I say, well there is deep dark hole inside me, so I like to keep it open. If you’re not new here, you get it.

When I think about other qualities I bring to the table, I used to think I didn’t have much to bring, but in truth I have quite a range of abilities. I am quite domesticated, I cook quite well (comment if you had any of my chicken), clean in a very swift manner, and of course there’s the cake. If you don’t like cake, its not going to work. I must feed the failed attempts to someone. Let’s talk about one of the better things I have, which is my big plunging mind. I can have a lot of discussion on varied subjects. If you need any help, just looking around here. If it’s not something I’m knowledgeable about, I willing to investigate it. I like to expand my knowledge and be a more well-rounded individual. Those are the more general aspects everyone should be able to get on board with, lets look about the more niche kind of things I can offer. Such as a wide selection of movies, you may or may not heard of. My wide collection of vintage video games. Or the fact I feel I can pick out some banging outfits.

Those are all the things about me. What kind of person I am looking for, what can I say about that? Well one thing I don’t want to do is get precise about physical appearance, as that’s not me. I’d like to meet all kinds of people, but there must be a few things they have to be okay with. Such as, being a little bit adventurous, and be willing to try new things. Be wiling to around young people. A understand mental health or be willing to find out more about it. You know, for obvious reasons. If I were to really start to nit-pick, I don’t know where I would start. I don’t want a perfect person, just someone is decent. As I know I can be far from moral, and far from perfect. I guess I’d want someone to be willing just to try. When I think about it, I don’t have a lot needs from another person besides ones that are so obvious, that don’t need mentioning. However, if you’re into wrestling, video games, books, and Asian culture it wouldn’t go a miss.

I don’t know if this post will be outdated by the time it goes out. or when I look back this post when I am with someone. Or even if you see this and we’re going out at the time, I just want you to know this blog was for you. It’s also for you my dear friends who thinks they could know someone who meets some of these qualities. I know I haven’t been extremely detailed, and it’s not because I don’t want to sound like a pick bitch. The reason is, I have grown to a place when I know the things that matter to me.

To my future boyfriend, maybe husband, this post is for you wherever you maybe, and whenever I might find you.

Xo FabEs