Afraid

Dear Friends,

Another year, another new season of by FabEs. This time I am going to do things a little different, as it’s something I have thought about more recently. Like, what this website is meant to be about, and how I have been stretching myself in the wrong direction. Now it’s time to fix these issues, and here’s the why.

When I original concepted this website, I wanted it to be a place where all my writing could be online. I originally had the idea I would then try my hand out doing different kinds of writing. I had originally had place holders to writing about my baking, and styling tips. Eventually I kept on thinking about what I wanted to say, and then I never said it. Which is based on the one simple thing, I was afraid. 

I have been afraid of a lot of things in my life, and what’s weird is me fearing trying different forms of writing. Which is very weird since I am not afraid to try new things, wither it be food experiences or anything else new. When it comes to my writing, I have always been afraid of writing something new and showing it to people. 

Where this comes from I dont know, but when I think about it, I’ve had a fear about what I used to put on here. I used to not know how to write these posts or not know how to write them in a manner which doesn’t sound to moany. As time has gone on, I have stopped worrying about what I am writing and just write it. Or course every now and then, depending on what subject at hand is I do get a little worried about it. I used to worry about who was gonna read it, and how they might judge me. These days I dont really think about it. 

As for the new stuff I want to write about, I have been so scared about writing it. I have been scared becuase I haven’t been sure about what I wanted to write. Or the kind of angle I wanted to take with them. While I also worried about it might show I dont know what I am doing. I’ve got to realise just becuase it something new doesn’t mean I dont know what I’m doing. While I am more aware different people might be attracted to what I am writing. As I will now be writing about Games, Movies, Baking, fashion, and health. When I promote these, I might attract new readers here, which for me is a little scary. 

I know I need to now have these fears, I used to worry about posting something every week online, to the point where I can now write a post in half an hour and do that twice a week. If I used the same logic, I will be able to write a post a week in a new format in no time at all, I’ve just got to keep at it. As for the content the truth is, I know what I want to write, it’s just going to take me a few tries for me to get the format correct. 

I know fear is a natural part of human biology, but for me to admit to the fear and worry so much about it, but hardly do anything about it. I know as a logical thinking adult I need to admit to my fears and face them. Even if they still give me worry while I am doing them, only to continue to face them will I ever be rid of them. However, not all my fears can be dealt with so easily. 

As I have made a big declaration to what I am going to do, the only thing for me to is do it. With that said, I want to launch season four of By FabEs. Which will include, movie reviews, gaming pieces, and some handy hints and recipes. Look forward to seeing one of those posts every week along with one of these every week. Have a read and I really could use your support.

Xo FabEs