17-2018

With the year official at an end I thought I would reflect on all the things I have done with my year. Unfortunately I wasn’t adventurous as I wanted to be, but I still managed to do quite a bit. Like always there were a few I never expected to do.

The beginning on of the year I was constantly worried I was going to crash at any minute, but as I found out I was more okay than I actually thought. I made it thought by watching J-dramas, which was an odd life saver, and around the same time I started to write Entanglement which helped me to focus. For the next couple of months I focused on my writing and dramas I dedicated myself to losing more weight which I am really glad that I did. I then played my first Zelda which I enjoyed a lot. Then many people left me for the summer.

Professionally I moved up a bit, and pushed back down, but I did however do as I promised and finally moved on to bigger and better things. I finally realised I was amazing and worth more, and as of day do not regret anything I have done.

My personal life stuck to the status quo of last year, and I’d say only add one new person to my inner circle and I did also bring an ex friend back into my life. However, I did figure out I don’t need to be so desperate to expand my circle just yet, as it became harder to meet my small circle as it is. Especially as I have only seem certain people once this year, which is hella bad.

That was the past as I looked to the future I really don’t know what’s going to happen this year. One thing that is going to happen this year is I am going to be thirty, which is insane!  One thing I am not going to do is make big bold goals for the year I’m going to roll with the punches. Just be me and see where the winds and crazy ideas take me. I feel like this year anything I want to do, or could do wouldn’t be a bad idea. It’s me living life and trying to be less “Fabian” about things. In 2017 I took up lot things I wouldn’t have never had guessed I would.

The only thing I am going to do with myself in this year is really find out who really FFMB. Those used to represent all my different interest, and now I feel like I need ad at least another four letters to match some of the interest I have now. But as I have so much I want to do I need to find a balance between them all.

I am also going to make myself more available and social. by which I mean, I will try to make more effort than sit at home doing nothing, when I could be out doing god knows what. This then will allow me to enjoy and indulge in my diverse set of friends I have, and by this time next year have them know me very well and me know them even better.  

I know most would be expect to be on this year and going crazy, but fuck that noise! I’m going to be the same personal I have always been, and that’s being the sensible gentleman who does what I want!

I look forward to the unpredictability of 2018 as I want to be surprised all year long. Here’s to this year being good and hopefully not my last.

XO Fabes