06 Lucas
ONE YEAR AGO
It was a Monday night, and I had decided to give myself the night off. I had already had two clients that day, but seeing as one wanted me to give him head, and the other just wanted me to piss on him, it was safe to say I didn’t get off that they.
Monday was usually a crappy day trying to get someone to hook up, everyone usually had the back to work fatigue. Many were inclined to want to meet, but either later in the week or the weekend, there were very few who actually wanted to hook up. I trudged through the many come on messages, I looked to get someone I liked.
Eventually I got a message from a guy who didn’t live to far away, and was looking to get fucked. I gave him my address and I expected him in roughly half an hour. Of course I was no fool; until he got here I was still looking for someone else, until I heard my buzzer go.
‘Hello,’ I said, answering the door.
‘It’s Lucas,’ he said, ‘we spoke on Grindr.’
‘Come on up,’ and I buzzed him in. I closed Grindr, put on some music and waited for my buddy to come to the door. ‘Hi,’ I said when he was standing outside my door.
‘Hi,’ he said. He was average height, blonde hair, slim, blues eyes, and looked really hot.
‘Come in,’ I said, letting him in, and checking out his firm looking ass as I did so. ‘Can I get you something to drink?’
‘You got any coke?’
‘I got a can somewhere,’ I said, going to looking for the drink, ‘how old are you?’
‘Twenty eight,’ he said, taking the can from me, ‘You?’
‘The same,’ I said, ‘you really never got to telling me what you’re into.’
‘Oh, the normal stuff, and open. How about you?’
‘I do whatever, top bottom, indoor outdoor, I’ll try anything once, or many times’
‘I’m verse kinda, but more bottom I’d say, I do like getting fucked.’
‘Then it’s a good thing you came over then,’ I said, making my way towards him, ‘how do you like to be fucked.’
‘However you want to fuck me.’
‘I can think of a few positions,’ I said, before I started to kiss him.
X X X
It was rare these days for me to have a Saturday night free. I usually was with Eve and Thomas, but this weekend Thomas had gone to his dad’s for the weekend, and I had sent Eve to her mums to help, as I had to work at some point his weekend, and I couldn’t do it at Eve’s.
However, I did get a message from a long term buddy of mine, he usually worked all over the place, and seeing I was free this weekend, it was a good time for us to meet up and enjoy each other.
I was expecting Noah at any time after nine, he said he’d bring some Chinese and we could just chill all night. Which is why I liked Noah, he was always treating and was a nice guy to chill with. Things could be different if he didn’t travel so much, and if I wasn’t already so busy.
There was a knock at my door, and I got up and wondered how Noah got into the building. Instead when I opened the door, it was Lucas standing there.
‘Lucas what are you doing here?’ I ask, hoping Noah wasn’t behind him.
‘You stop by all the time, I thought I would do it,’ says Lucas, barging into my flat.
‘Are you planning on staying long,’ I ask, closing the door, ‘I am going out in a bit.’
‘Going out to fuck someone else?’
I looked at him, did he just say that?
‘What do you mean?’
‘I know,’ he said calmly.
‘Know what?’ I ask, wondering what exactly he knows.
‘I know about you and all your other…people. I know about you and the boy, I know about you, the girl and the guy, and I know about the other random men who keep coming here. I know everything and I know you’re a cheating lying cunt.’
I didn’t know what to say, I had been caught out. I didn’t know where he gotten his information, but of course there still ways some wriggle room out of this situation.
‘What are you talking about?’ I ask, to find out where all this was coming from.
‘I’ve been watching you, ever since I saw you with that boy. I’ve been watching where you go, who you go with, who comes back here. To my surprise I’ve seen a lot; so don’t play stupid, I know and I want to know why?’
Well shit, the jig was up. It was only Lucas, so I guess we’re now over, oh well. This day had to come some time.
‘Okay, you know,’ I start, ‘yes I have been having sex with different people other than you. Some of the people you’ve seen I am long term involved with, and some they pay me to have sex with me. As to the why, because I can.’
‘Wow,’ says Lucas, ‘I didn’t expect you to be so honest, and you’re a prostitute oh my god! What could you have given me, oh my god.’
‘First of all, I am clean and tested every three months. Second I always use condoms on the people who pay me. Third I am on prep so don’t be like that.’
‘I’m sorry; I don’t mean to offend the whore.’
‘Fine I’m a whore,’ I say, accepting his abuse. ‘I am a sex worker, I do web cam shows, I’ve been in porn and I sleep with guys for money. You can call me a whore, a slut, prostitute or whatever I don’t care. I was this person before I met you and I’ve been that person since. Most likely after this I will be for a while.’
‘There is no shame in what you’re saying,’ says Lucas, appalled, ‘don’t you even feel apologetic to me?’
‘If you asking me if I feel bad, yes I do. But this is just who I am, and with your little problem it didn’t really bother me to what I was doing to you.’
‘Oh thanks, you never cared.’
‘I cared for a while, and then I stopped. If you would have shown me as attention as much you did for snorting coke, things properly wouldn’t have ended up this way.’
‘You hated me doing coke that much, that you stopped caring.’
‘Yes,’ I said, harsh and to the point.
Lucas didn’t look at me he just looked at the ground. I know what I said had hurt him, but I had to be honest since he had been following me.
‘And I’m not going to lie to you,’ I say, to break the silence, ‘I’ve got a guy coming over, and were going to do stuff. So if you want to go, go, but I’m not going to turn him away, the choices is yours, leave or join in.’
‘You’re asking me to join?’
‘You’re choice,’ I say. Just then the buzzer went I buzzed up Noah; Lucas had sunk into the sofa. I wasn’t honestly going to kick him out, but I wasn’t going to allow his moping to ruin my evening. I’d fuck on top of him if I had too.
‘So…’ I say, to Noah, when I open the door, ‘My boyfriend is here, and I don’t know if you want to…’
‘More the merrier,’ says Noah.
‘Alright then,’ I say, letting Noah in, and his bags of Chinese. ‘Noah, Lucas, Lucas, Noah.’
‘How you doing?’ asks Noah.
Lucas didn’t answer; he just continued to sit there.
‘Is he okay?’ asked Noah, taking out some egg rolls.
‘No,’ I say, biting on the end of one of the egg roll, ‘he found out I am cheating on him because of his drug problem.’
‘That’s harsh, that’s why I’m glad we’re casual, I don’t give a fuck. But err if he staying is he going to have a problem with us using tonight.’
‘I hope not,’ I say, ‘he’s problem is the little white powder, not the rocks.’
‘Cool, because he is a cute guy, I really want to see him naked.’
‘Then go chat him up, as he’s most likely mad with me.’
Noah and I put some of the Chinese on to a couple of plates and put them on the coffee table in the living room.
‘Did he tell you about me?’ ask Lucas.
‘Nope,’ says Noah, taking a spoonful of special fried rice, ‘we usually just meet up, fuck, suck fuck some more and then I go home and see each other a couple months or weeks later.’
‘Then why does he let you come back?’
‘Properly the chems,’ says Noah,
‘What chems?’
‘Just a bit of Tina, have a bit of that and we’re good for a good few hours.’
‘Let me get this straight,’ says Lucas, rising from the sofa, ‘you complain about me doing drugs yet you’re doing them with other guys, what the fuck?’
‘Look, what Noah and I do is different; we do it every once in a while, not every day. Also what we do doesn’t affect my erection, it just make super fucking horny and ready to fuck all night.’
‘Alright,’ says Lucas, sitting back down, ‘I’m not going anywhere, so let’s all get horny.’
‘We will,’ says Noah, ‘let’s eat and chill for a bit, then we’ll get crazy.’
TEN MONTHS AGO
‘I’ve never asked,’ said Lucas, when he invited me to his for an overnighter. ‘Do you do any chems?’
‘No not really,’ I said, as was about pull down Lucas’ shorts.
‘Do you mind if I do?’
‘What you going to do?’ I asked, stepping away.
‘Just a bit of coke.’
‘Oh,’ I said, not sure if I wanted to or not. Don’t get me wrong I have done it before, but mainly just as a fun party drug, as for sex it just doesn’t work for me.
‘You want some?’
‘Nah I think I’m alright,’ I said, knowing I wanted to keep my mind.
‘Cool,’ said Lucas, preparing his substance.
‘Do you do that often?’ I asked, curious to know if this was a regular thing.
‘Nah,’ he said, after doing a line, ‘I just do it on the occasional weekend. You know a way of cooling off from a hard week.’
‘Okay,’ I said believing him, ‘I guess I’m lucky my job isn’t too stressful.’
‘Well this week was hell, but the other good thing about doing it makes fucking me really easy.’
‘Really,’ I said, slipping my hand down the back of his shorts.
X X X
I sat and watched as Noah handed Lucas the pipe and lit it with his lighter, and instructed to inhale as it was vaporising. It didn’t go well on his first attempt, but after another try, Lucas was able to inhale a little bit.
‘You good?’ asks Noah.
‘I’m all right,’ says Lucas, in a hoarse voice.
‘Good,’ says Noah, taking in a hit off the pipe.
As for me, I was keeping my distance, as Noah was charming Lucas, I was happy for him to forget what I had told him and just enjoy himself.
‘L, join the party,’ says Noah, handing me the pipe. I took it waited for him to light it then took in a deep inhale; I held it there for the count of ten, and then exhaled. I did that two more times, and then I was good.
My head suddenly felt so clear, I was suddenly aware of everything around me. My body felt weightless, and I felt so much more relaxed. I didn’t feel tired I just felt I could stay up for hours. I looked at the two guys in my flat and they were hot and I wanted to get them naked.
‘How do you feel?’ I ask Lucas, while I’m creeping up behind him.
‘I feel,’ says Lucas, as I place my hand on his stomach, ‘I feel good.’
‘Like it better than coke?’ I ask, as I starting kissing the back of his neck.
‘I don’t know yet,’ says Lucas, in a slurred voice.
‘Its way better,’ says Noah, then kissing Lucas.
While they kiss, I started unbuttoning Lucas’ jeans, and then pulled them down. I stood by back up, and caught Noah’s eye while he was kissing Lucas. Noah started to unbutton Lucas’ shirt, and I pulled it off when it had finished being unbuttoned. I began to kiss my way down Lucas’ back till I was at his arse, and I pulled his underwear down.
I stood up again, and this time I leaned over Lucas to kiss Noah. I loved kissing Noah, it was, wet gentile and felt so good after we had both gotten high. I loved kissing him for hours, and I could do that easily tonight.
‘Take off his clothes,’ I say, to Lucas when I’m in-between kisses.
While making out with Noah, I could feel Lucas between us, unbuttoning things, and pulling things down as best he could, as he was sandwiched between us. I break away from kissing, because I need to see the two men in front of me.
‘Fuck he’s so wet?’ says Noah.
I look over Lucas’ shoulder to see that Noah is holding his dick, and it’s hard. Not only is it hard, but the amount of pre-cum coming from his dick is all over Noah’s hand and still seeping from his dick.
‘You’re hard,’ I say,
‘I know,’ says Lucas.
I turn Lucas around and then I drop to my knees, taking his cock into my mouth. I was able to take all of Lucas into my mouth, as he wasn’t that big, but six inches was big enough for me. He felt so good in my mouth. The taste of his pre-cum was sweet, and it had been so long since I’ve had him in my mouth I was enjoying every bit of it.
I went up and down on his dick, making sure to get his head to squeeze out all of its juice. I then took him out of my mouth, and then jerked him off for a bit, before I slowly put him back into my mouth, then went up and down slowly on his dick, wanting him to come. I just was enjoying sucking him off.
‘I’m going to cum,’ says Lucas.
‘No, no, no,’ says Noah, taking me off Lucas’ dick. ‘You can’t just yet we’ve got hours yet.’
‘I was enjoying myself,’ I say, getting back up.
‘I know, but if he came I wouldn’t be able to try it. Don’t be selfish, we can both enjoy him. Take his ass for example,’ Noah cups Lucas’ left butt cheek, ‘I think there is a whole feast in there for us both.’
‘Okay,’ I say, giving Lucas’ ass a slap. I go over to my sofa and pull it out so it was in its bed mode. ‘If you don’t mind,’ I say to Lucas, he walks over to the bed and lies down.
I don’t wait for Noah to join before I’m diving into Lucas’ ass. I pull apart his cheeks so I can see his hole. His hole isn’t hairy, but I can see his light golden hair. I give his hole and nice slow long lick, as I do I hear Lucas let out a moan. I do it again, and just one more time. I let go off his cheeks, so my tongue is buried in between. I give his hole a couple quick licks, then I jiggle my tongue around his hole, then I raise my tongue out of his hole up to the top of his crack, and then I go in reverse. I go down all the way too his balls and back up again. I wish I had some dick lick, but I was enjoying licking his hole.
‘Is it my turn?’ ask Noah.
I look at Noah, and I see he’s been watching me, and jerking off.
‘Sure,’ I say, removing myself from Lucas, ‘Go to town.’
‘I will,’ says Noah. He gives me a quick kiss, and then dives into Lucas’ ass.
I stand and watch for a moment, seeing Noah going down on Lucas makes me remember the last time he went down on me, and I hope he will go down on me tonight. I was extremely horny, after rimming Lucas, watching Noah rimming, and of course the chems.
I slowly jerk myself to the scene, when I knew I needed lube. I needed to stick my dick into one of these two, I don’t care who I just need to have my dick in an ass now.
I quickly ran and got some lube, and when I came back they hadn’t even noticed I was gone.
‘I think it’s my turn again,’ I say.
‘No it’s still my turn,’ says Noah.
‘There is plenty to go around,’ says Lucas.
‘Okay I’m done,’ says Noah, giving Lucas one more lick.
‘Good,’ I say, giving Noah a kiss. I climb on top of Lucas, placing my cock in between Lucas’s crack. ‘You ready for me?’
‘Yeah,’ gasps Lucas.
I reach over and grab the bottle of lube, and put a lot on my dick then I rub a bit on Lucas’ hole then after a quick rub I slide myself into Lucas’ hole. This hole is as I remember, it’s not tight or it’s not loose either and it is very comfortable. I slowly go in and out, and it feels alright, but it doesn’t feel as good as it normally does. Usually after a few seconds in a guy I start getting into it, especially if in bare, that usually get me going. If I’m honest with myself, I was having more fun licking Lucas’ ass.
I keep fucking Lucas for a few more minutes before I stop and allow Noah to go. As I watch them fuck, I feel myself getting turned on again. Just watching Lucas moan and gasp, and hearing Noah clapping of Lucas’ ass while he fucks him.
‘Fuck me harder,’ says Lucas, and Noah does.
As I watch I feel horny and glad Lucas is enjoying himself.
SIX MONTHS AGO
I felt weird, I hadn’t done coke in years, and the last time I did I was on a night out. I felt so awake, but more like I had three cups of coffee than a good night’s sleep. My nose felt numb, and my throat tasted chalky. But I did feel horny thought, but I couldn’t really feel my dick.
I was making out with Lucas naked in his bed, and as turned on as I was I couldn’t really feel it, as I usually could feel it in my dick. I need to try and get myself up. I stopped kissing Lucas and I made my way down Lucas’ body and decided I will play on his nipples, so I took his left nipple in my mouth for a second, then I moved on to his right. I sucked on it, as I did I could feel Lucas force my head down, so I sucked it harder. Then I stopped as this was frustrating.
‘This is annoying,’ I said.
‘What?’ asked Lucas/
‘I am horny I want to fuck, but I’m not hard.’
‘I know, it’s annoying.’
‘It’s more than annoying, if I knew I was going to do this to night, I would have brought some v with me.’
‘Well next time make sure you bring some.’
‘There deffo won’t be a next time. This is the last time for me.’
‘How come?’ asked Lucas, looking like a lost child.
‘Because this isn’t help me to get off, it’s making just want to kick off.’
X X X
No one had come yet, but we are taking a small break. We all have taken another hit, and we were just chilling, watching bad late night TV, while we’re barely talking. I was still so horny, I did try to fuck Lucas again, but once I was in him I lost my horn again.
‘So are you two staying together?’ asks Noah.
‘I don’t know,’ I answer, honestly. ‘It’s all up to him I guess.’
‘I don’t want to think about it,’ says Lucas, ‘he’s got enough men, women and children, I don’t know if I want to be one of many.’
‘Wow, hard truth there,’ says Noah.
‘All I want to do is enjoy right now,’ says Lucas, ‘And all I want to know is who is going to fuck me next.’
‘It’s not your turn,’ said Noah, ‘I’m ready for L’s big dick to fuck me into next week.’
I smile, I don’t say anything as even though I’m horny I don’t know if I can actually fuck. I don’t know what was bothering me, was it the fact that Lucas was here, or was the drugs? I don’t know, it could be a combination of both. But this is me; I fuck so I’m going to fuck.
I roll on top of Noah and give him a quick kiss, and no surprise to me I’m hard. I lube up, put Noah’s legs on my shoulders and then gently go into him. He feels different from Lucas, he’s a lot tighter, I slide in and out of him and every stroke feels so good on my dick. Noah has a fantastic ass, this is why we don’t meet so often I don’t remember how he feels, and it feels so good. I start going in and out of him faster and faster. Now I feel it, I’m back, he’s ass feels great it’s got to be Lucas.
Why am I having this go through my head, while I’m balls deep in Noah’s ass. I need to stop taking drugs it’s fucking up my mind. It’s got to be Lucas, I mean when I was inside of him I didn’t really enjoy it. But now I am so into fucking Noah’s ass, it can be a familiarity thing. Or am turned on fucking Noah because I know Lucas is watching me. I find myself fucking Noah faster.
Oh my god what’s wrong with me? That’s why I’m into it, because Lucas is watching me fuck another guy. I am showing off to him, I am showing him what I do with all the other guys he knows about. This is how I fuck other guys, listen to the sounds he’s loving it.
What am I showing off for? He knows how I fuck, I have been fucking him for over a year, and he’s been loving it. I know why I am not into fucking Lucas, because he knows, and that thrill of me fucking him has gone. As fucked up as it sounds I was getting off on the fact that when we fucked, he didn’t know I had fucked someone else a day or two before. God I am sick.
I hadn’t even realised I had slowed down on fucking Noah, seems like my thinking had slowed down my tempo. Not that Noah seemed to care; he was so high he was enjoying himself. I was too to a degree, but now I know what I know I was never taking chems again.
‘L,’ says Lucas, suddenly.
‘What?’ I say, not looking at him.
‘I’m hard.’
I turn around and see that Lucas is once again hard. I don’t know if he expects me to suck him again, but I don’t know if I’ll enjoy that now knowing what I know.
‘Nice,’ I say, still working away at Noah.
‘Can I fuck you?’
I stop mid thrust to look at him. Lucas has always been a bottom, why suddenly did he want to fuck me.
‘Really?’ I ask.
‘Yeah, you said you liked me to fuck when I get up, so I’m up and feeling left out.’
‘Okay.’
Without needing any instruction, Lucas was behind me and shoving his dick in my hole. It hurt like a mother fucker, as Lucas had a huge head, but now he was inside me it felt amazing. I left him fuck me a little bit, and he wasn’t the best, but it felt good, and it was turning me on. I then realised I was still inside of Noah.
‘Go slow,’ I tell Lucas.
As Lucas slows down I am able to pick back up stride inside of Noah. Eventually we work out a rhythm, and every time Lucas came into me, it was my turn to go into Noah, eventually it was my turn to take charge of both. Pushing my ass back into Lucas then pushing my dick into Noah. To say I was having a good time, was an understatement.
ONE YEAR AGO
‘I never asked,’ said Lucas, as we were getting dressed, ‘are you looking for regular or one offs.’
‘It’s a bit late to ask,’ I said, ‘I just had you, so I could hit it and quit it.’
‘Oh I see.’
‘But I don’t mind fucking you again, if you’re up for it sometime.’
‘Yeah totally I had a really good time.’
‘Great,’ I said, ushering him towards the door. ‘I’ll say this you’re the best bottom I’ve had in a while.’
‘Next time I’ll show you what a real bottom can do,’ said Lucas, giving me a kiss, before leaving.
‘I’m counting on it,’ I said, closing the door.
X X X
I wake with a jolt, I have no idea what the time is, all I know is it’s the next day because there is sunlight peeking through the curtains. My head feels like garbage, definitely no more chems for me, ever.
I look around my living room, and it’s a mess of plates, half eaten Chinese, clothes, and two naked men spooning. I looked to see Noah right behind Lucas. I then realised where I was, I was on the other side of the room on the arm chair. I must have been watching them fuck and passed out.
I suddenly felt alone, and unwanted.
