So Sophisticated
Dear Friends,
This was a post I wrote a while ago, but no I feel it finally has a its time and place. #BLM
In this journey we call life there is a lot of things we think we want, and when we get them or close to it, we realise this isn’t something you wanted. That is why I feel provided that recently I’ve had the chance to return to a lot of the things I thought I wanted to get away a from but realised its isn’t that bad after all.
As part of my training I have been able to return to a lot of the schools I attended and realised they aren’t as bad school as I thought. I had a relation; is the area I grew up in so bad after all? Or is because I’ve had so many bad things happen in this area that I just wanted to escape and go on to do something better. Even worse have I become ashamed of the poor black boy for Peckham?
Once I wanted to be rich, so I could get out the inner city, and live a life that was very sophisticated and everything that came with it was fancy as fuck. Why did I want this, because I think there is idea I’ve had drummed in my head for a long time, more money means you are better. Which now I know isn’t right, more money doesn’t mean better, is just more different and different issues.
I feel this because I’ve felt like too many people, I know just want to get rich quick and not work for it. That’s the difference then me and them. For me to get the point where’re I have kiss my ass money, I knew I had to work hard for it, just to let people know this is the struggle I went through as a black man to get to where I am.
This that is dumb, because just living is a struggle for me. Whatever I do is proving to people I can be a success. Due to the carrier I have chosen, I’ve realised money isn’t the way to feel successful. For me to be successful is having my students pass exams and getting the best they can do, and that would be a great deal of success.
However, doesn’t mean because of this realisation I am not going to be flash and fly as hell. Oh hell No! It just means the things I am going to be sophisticated about is my teaching. Proving the kids that come across me will know I have made it, and made something of myself, that isn’t a multi-millionaire.
I am no longer to try to be Mr Fancy Pants, it isn’t the best idea I’ve had. I’ve had the time also to sit down with a couple middle class people, and as boring as that was, I don’t want to be like them. I like being the intelligent man from the ghetto. It’ suits me fine, and it is what I am why change it?
There is no need for me to shop for expense food or live in the trendy areas. I am just fine, just so long as I have the latest game console, I think that good enough for me. However, that said I won’t give up my M&S Buck’s Fizz at Christmas.
Xo FabEs.
