Gameovr?

For as long as I can remember I have been a gamer, and of late I have buying games but not really playing them. When I think about it, I have been doing this for a while now. However, in the last year I have got a new console and been really into the game that came with it, but I have been wondering if maybe I should give it up. 

I have been debating this for a long time now, I still have the desire to buy games and follow the latest news, but my drive to actually play something hasn’t been there. A part of me thinks maybe I haven’t found a game that makes me want to play it. Another part of me knows that is not only the case, I could play anything if I really wanted to. 

I feel like a part my addiction as made me continue to buy, but that need to buy has been given me the need to play. As of writing this post, I have gotten at least six new games in the last three months, and not one of them I have actually played. I know a part of me not playing has something to do with the way new games have to be played. By which I mean, if it takes an hour to install and update by the time its ready to play its time for me to go to bed. 

I think the hardest part of this choice is I don’t know which way I should turn. If I were to give it up I would save some money and not worry about buying the latest must have. While at the same time I know if do give it up I know I will lose a part of myself. For me games have been so a big part of my life, and if was to give it up I would feel lost. 

I think me and games have had such a long legacy, that I have memories of it for all part of my life. In this part of my life I call “my adult life” I don’t really have any memories of it. I do also feel at this time I don’t have anyone to play with any more. I know if I have friends or people around to play with I would play a lot more, because I have a lot more fun playing with other people. 

There is still a part of me that feels maybe I am still a gamer but just modern gaming isn’t for me. Maybe I should just give up modern gaming and play some of the gems I’ve had for years and never started or finished. Maybe then I might find there is where my true gaming heart lies. 

As it is me, I have devised a plan which of course I will keep you updated about. I am going to do a three months freeze. From December to February I will not buy any more gaming equipment at all. There of course will be exceptions, if I happen to find something I may need cheap I will get, but at this point there is not really a lot I need. During this freeze out I will force myself to play a game from on the XBOX PlayStation and Switch and see if I actually get back into again. 

Why do I feel the need to force myself to game? Well since I have now gotten back into reading and I have done it by forcing myself to read on my journey to and from work, I realised how much I love a good book. I am going to try the same with video games and see if I can make myself fall in love with games again. 

Well I will keep you updated with the progress of lack of progress as things go by. If you want to weigh in on the matter I do appreciate the help. Now I plan to jump into Mario’s new adventure and an old one of Lara and see if they hook me back. 

XO Fabes